current mood: okay
I am not ungrateful, I know I have a wonderful life. My family is great, and they've always been there for me. I love my mom and my dad with all my heart, I truly do, but sometimes I just feel so trapped. I really want independence and I feel so behind. My parent's have had a lot of important issues to deal with, which obviously pushed my driving lower down on the priority list. I wish I could drive, I only have to take one more test to get my license. I'm just a nervous driver, I don't really like it, but I need to drive. I need that independence and experience. I love my parents to death, but I really want to be free. I want to strike out on my own, no matter how rough it is.
All that matters is that I can have some freedom to do what I want. My parents are the most over protective parents I've ever met. I love that they care about me so much, but they've raised me to be a smart young woman. They need to realize that they can trust me to make decisions, I'm not the typical stupid college student that smokes weed, drinks, and parties. I don't do any of that, never have, never will. I'm so glad that my parents are there for me, I'm SO glad to have loving parents, I am. However, I still want to be able to do what I want.
I want to be able to spend time with my boyfriend, especially when I barely get to see him. Soon it won't be such an issue, when I live there (in about one year) it'll be a lot easier to get started on my independence. I'm glad my family wants to move to Chicago too, because I honestly don't want to be far away from them, that's not what I want at all. I just want some freedom.